I was filled with anxiety about giving birth—so much so that I opted for an elective C-section.
Every birth experience is distinct. In our series, “My Birth Journey,” we invite mothers from around the globe to share their tales of how they welcomed their children into the world. These stories range from those who had vaginal deliveries to those who opted for C-sections, whether alone or surrounded by loved ones. Each narrative, though different, beautifully conveys the emotions tied to childbirth.
I had a significant fear of childbirth, much worse than anything else I had encountered. As someone who deals with generalized anxiety disorder, I was well-acquainted with feelings of nervousness and fear, but the idea of giving birth filled me with dread. Just imagining the process sent my heart racing. I would feel anxious listening to birth stories or watching labor scenes in films. The thought of my own delivery was a source of panic and fear of potential trauma.
Thus, I made the decision to schedule an elective C-section. I was even prepared to cover the hefty costs if my insurance didn’t support C-sections without a medical reason (though I firmly believe that anxiety qualifies). I began saving for my “C-section fund” with some money earned from a freelance project.
This plan felt right from the very beginning. I embraced my pregnancy and looked forward to my son’s arrival. Had I been focused on labor, those months would have been filled with worrying and panic attacks.
But, as the saying goes, “the best-laid plans…” Just five days before my scheduled procedure, the nurse practitioner concluded my pelvic exam with a knowing smile. “This baby isn’t going to wait five days,” she remarked. I was already three centimeters dilated, and my cervix was beginning to thin.
I understood that if I went into labor early, the hospital would still perform the C-section upon my arrival. However, the reality of my situation suddenly hit me. I felt a mix of excitement and nervousness.
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In summary, my journey through pregnancy and the anticipation of giving birth was fraught with anxiety, but it ultimately led me to a decision that felt right for me. The experience highlighted the importance of understanding and addressing fears, and it opened the door to a wealth of resources and support available to expectant mothers.